Questions

I sit here at 5:14 in the morning in mid December 2025. I have been waking up earlier every morning for years now. I used to say getting up early as a humble brag but lately I realize that getting older I need to be getting more sleep. What waking up early has provided me with though is getting that one thing we wish we all had. Extra time. More time to do laundry in the morning, get in a morning workout, a morning walk (which i will be doing shortly), meditation, and journal upon more things.

What tends to happen is on days that I need to wake for work my brain will need to wake at 3:30 or 4 am to go to the bathroom. But once I lay back down and think of any daily responsibilities I am up. I think of this as a blessing and a curse. Good for the days that I need to be in to work at 7am, bad for my days off.

What I have found is a joy in writing a journal. Especially with me going back for my Masters program soon writing a journal helps me get so many ideas and thoughts out. A stream of Inspiration has poured into my sketchbook and thoughts that ruminate around tend to become clearer once on paper. Some of it may be a stream on consciousness type of rant like this will eventually become or already is but sometimes this can be a road map to better ideas and thought.

Like for instance, A thought on a masters question? This is a question that still lingers in my head for a while now. When i write down the ideas for the question I see more techniques and ideas flow as sketches into my drawing pad. Symbolism's bubbles to the surface and at times sometimes my self identity is questioned. That big question that always lingers. "Who am I?" or rather "Who am I as an artist?"

This question has been present for a long time now. As a singer I used to relate to people through my lyrics. Touching upon feelings, getting high, political outrage, smoking weed, dealing with voices in my head, that sweet Mary Jane and It was a time were we all were trying to figure that shit out... While smoking a lot of weed. See every generation in my opinion goes through similar situations as a zeitgeist. There will always be corrupt politicians, social injustices, racism, Mental health, difference in opinions, wars, famine, fashion, the rich against the poor, popular not relating to the meek, and so on and so forth. This whirl wind of issues has always been a constant whether Martha wants to bring things like this up at a town meeting to solve a real problem, or if the powers that be place these issues in the public eye to keep the masses distracted so they can go play in the shadows. So The question that I would like to present will try to avoid any of these pop culture hot topics but use these images as satire to covey a real question of the human condition.

We all tend to get up in our brains as a creative and sometimes that can wake you up at 3:30am in the morning.... What I would like to do for the next year is try and put out one blog every week or so exploring the questions we ask ourselves in our minds, and I hope that you will join me.

So with that being said and no real outcome to this blog has come into focus I will leave you a series of questions. If you would like to reply I'd be happy to read your responses and share in the conversation. Enjoy your day.

1) What was the first song that really resonated with you? What was it about and how did it change your life?

2) What is your purpose? What motivates you to get out of your bed in the morning?

3) What is a fact about yourself that is hard to confront?

Jason Ferguson